Back to life

9:36 AM , 0 Comments

So much has happened in the last few weeks, and yet, none of it made it to this journal. :(
Each day was a struggle to get through, thanks to, as usual, my health. Merde.

In the last week I had someone I really really like leave to work for someone I have no respect for. I wanted to say so much, but when she told us, I said nothing. I again had the feeling that the way I see things in my head is so much brighter than the way it comes together each day – do you ever get that feeling?

There is always so much to do when a company is growing, and even more to do when although everything you have created is amazing, you know you can create so much more. Sometimes I think “I only have about 45 years where I can contribute, and there’s so much I want to do!”

If I look at the past year, we have come so far, and have grown so much! Not sure if we stopped long enough to recognize that, or to share with the team and celebrate each step. On my list for this coming year.

Glad to be able to work today! I can’t stand it when I am so medicated I can’t even string together one coherent sentence. Nevertheless, today is a new and amazing day, where amazing things will happen, no doubt. Some already have! I wish I could count on having every day, and feel sorry for myself sometimes when whole weeks are spent with the mental capacity of a worm, where my only contribution is making my children laugh at my nonsensical speech. But when I feel well, everything is amazing, and I can’t wait to contribute!

So – here’s to a great today! :)
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Really sad today 😔

9:33 AM , 0 Comments

I’ve been at the office since 8am, which is a miracle considering how sick I’ve been feeling, and how much medication I’ve been taking for two weeks now. I really struggle when my health gets that weak, because I feel like I lose control. I don’t know if I will be able to go to meetings, or go to work, or even just type a letter. It is very disheartening.
One of my most difficult battles to fight is being consistently reliable.
When I get as sick as I have been getting for the past few weeks, the phone is put aside and not answered, e-mails don’t even get looked at, computer is shut off, I am completely disconnected.
Last week, I worked really hard on the week-end to catch up on all the work I was behind on when I got sick. Now this week the same thing happened, and here I am on Monday morning, back to where I was last week: A whole week behind :( It is hard emotionally.
One thing that made me feel immensely better was a phone call from my mom. When she called, I was sleeping (yes, at noon), and my husband woke me up to talk to her. She has major health issues herself, and gets what it’s like, but you know what she said? “You have got to figure something out and stop taking these medications, you can’t even function on them. This can’t happen [by this time I was feeling really guilty]. You are a brilliant, exceptional woman, we need you to be in good health. Having you down and drugged is a waste!” Anyway, I am not even sure of the exact words she used, I didn’t have the mental capacity at that time, plus it was in Spanish, so not translating literally, but they were the perfect words. What she said, in essence, was that people like me should never be down because they are changing the world, making a difference, and one day down is one day wasted. Wow. Only a mother could believe in you that much, right? I am a lucky girl.
I really hate letting people down, it affects me to the core, and yet I seem to always be cancelling meetings and commitments because of my health. It makes me sad. Most days I think “well, tomorrow is a new day, the world didn’t end, I’ll pick up where I left off” which is true, but whats’ also true is that I’m not even sure if I will be able to work the next day, or to be my best self, and when it doesn’t happen for many days in a row, I feel like I am imposing on everyone else around me.
Today I am at work, medicated just enough to be able to type and have a simple conversation, so let’s see how far I get. Hope your last week was amazing! :)
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so proud of Alex Beim!

11:21 AM , 0 Comments

I always have a hard time explaining what Alex does to others. He wants to create amazing moments, magical moments, playful moments in people’s lives. Lucky him, this is what he does with the company he created. Imagine dedicating your life to make others’ lives more magical? Pretty cool!

Here he is, talking about what he does:

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debrief

11:26 PM , 0 Comments

I had an amazing day today – very very intense. I had a lot of very important meeting which will determine the course our schools will follow, did research, got half way through our 3 year strategic plan with Mr. President, and had three heart-to-heart conversations. I was so booked all day I had to ask permission to go pee, and only got through a third of my lunch. I’m happy though, because incredible things happened. I got to dream about the curriculum, and plan for new and amazing additions with my team. I got to read 3 research papers on brain development and education, and I got to make a couple of that brought tears to my teammates’ eyes. perfect day :)

Hubby picked me up at 5:30pm, and I was so happy all evening that I couldn’t stop acting like a real clown. I spent time with my boys, had a great family dinner conversation with our sons and friends, took a family photo, cleaned half my fridge, and the list goes on. It was as if my day was twice as long today.

I had a hard time in one of my meetings (and it was supposed to be the easiest, most creative meeting of the day). I had to hear a few very harsh things from one of my teammates, and try very hard to keep my calm and not react. Well, tomorrow is another day :)

I think I will work from home tomorrow, so I can process without interruption all of the things that went on today. Plus, it is summer vacation for my boys, and I want to spend time with them as much as possible, even if only by sharing the same space while I work and they go about enjoying their day.

I have felt the full range of emotions today, from sad to elated. It was a day worth living, and one in which I got to make a difference. Most are, but this one more than the others. Here’s to an even better tomorrow!

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finished working just in time to go to work tomorrow 😀

9:36 PM , 0 Comments

So I have been working non-stop every minute I had without the family and without being completely ruled by antihistamines. Today is BC Day (thank you BC), so I got one more day to work, before work :)

It is really hard to be sick it seems – life keeps happening with or without you, and if it is without you, it leaves you a nice pile of things to do so you can make up for the time you skipped :)

Tomorrow I can finally go to work at the office (I hope), and I am delighted to report that I have ZERO e-mails in my inbox and ZERO to dos, of the 102 that were in my inbox this week-end.

I know it sounds lame to talk about to dos, when there are so many more important things going on in the world. I guess that to do list (which contains everything I need to do to reach the goals I set at the start of the year, plus all the work things I committed to delivering, plus all of my family and personal obligations) is an extension of me. I put everything in there so I have my head clear to think, be creative, relax. I never have any thought about what I need to do, they are all in the to do list. In a way, not looking at it would be like shutting down my brain for a week. Doable, but painful. I’ll stop here, before it starts sounding like self-pity.

After all, I am happy as a clown! :)

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never saw #YouTube as a #classroom before – have you?

5:03 PM , 0 Comments

I just watched a TED Talk called “The nerd’s guide to learning everything online” by John Green.

He talked about how much he disliked learning in the traditional sense (school), and how pointless he felt it was, until he changed schools and got inspired to learn. This happened, he says, because he, for the first time, felt inspired to do so by the people around him. I quote: “And all at once I became a learner. And I became a learner, because I found myself in a community of learners. I found myself surrounded by people who celebrated intellectualism and engagement, and who thought that my ironic oh-so-cool disengagement wasn’t clever, or funny, but, like, it was a simple and unspectacular response to very complicated and compelling problems. And so I started to learn, because learning was cool.”

Being an educator, people’s experiences and interactions with education fascinate me. I love school. I have always loved school, always loved learning, reading, participating in class. I loved it so much that I knew, when I was two years old, that I was going to become a teacher, just so that I could always be at school. What I didn’t know back then, is that not everyone loved school, and it wasn’t for a lack of effort or enthusiasm, it was just not the right way of learning for them.

This is why hearing people, like John Green, talk about what finally attracted them to be a lifelong learner, is very interesting to me: It gives me a window into that person’s way of learning. My job is then to climb through that window and look at my schools from the inside, from their viewpoint, to see if we are reaching people like him.

You see, schools don’t have to teach the way they teach, they just do. It takes time to revolutionize an entire educational system. I have the advantage of owning my own school, which keeps us nimble. We discover a new way for people to learn, like John on Youtube, and we evaluate our program immediately, not decades later, to see if we are reaching all our students.

Like John, there are many children (and adults) who would feel re-inspired to learn, if only they felt that spark that John felt. My job as an educator, is to make those sparks happen. How?

In the classroom, by making all classroom learning experiences interactive. The student’s job is not to listen, it is to get involved, ask questions, find answers, be interested. If you want data, there’s google for that now.

Outside of the classroom as well, by teaching children to learn from every form that it presented to them. They can learn from asking questions, but also from teaching someone. They can learn from just walking outside, because the have been taught to look around, ask questions, discover. They can learn from Youtube, like John, because like him, they discovered something appealing, and found their tribe of learners.

Children are avid learners, but schools show them a very narrow vision of what learning is. They learn that classrooms are for learning, they learn that there’s nothing one can learn from looking at a tree, running down a hill, watching television, so when they do those things, they don’t get the benefit of learning from it.

Of course, this doesn’t mean that children should spend all their time running down hills or watching tv. What it means is that at school, they have been taught how to find learning everywhere, how to be lifelong learners. They have been encouraged to be curious, to try new ways of doing things.

That’s also why I work with children younger than five. That time is the most significant in the development of their brains, but also, setting up good habits (like the habit of looking for ways to learn and get engaged) at such a young age ensures that, regardless of the teachers they have in the future, they will always be lifelong learners.

I personally don’t spend any time on Youtube, so I don’t often find learning opportunities there, which is exactly why it was important for me to listen to John’s talk. I would not have connected those dots because they were not of interest to me. But to John, they are, and most likely, to many people too. Now that I have seen John’s TED Talk, I have a newfound understanding of Youtube, and of people like John, who want to find a learning community to interact with. I can now integrate this into my own views on education, and therefore make our schools more responsive to this specific type of learning.

Today I learned about why John thinks that “in a lot of ways, the YouTube page resembles a classroom”, and started thinking about how communities learn, beyond the classroom walls. I also learned something that i had not thought of before but that was so obvious now that I think of it, which is that every person can learn to want to learn (no pun intended here), given the right community. So how do we build these rich communities? How do we make this free learning accessible to everyone? How do we encourage our children to ask questions and marvel at the world, if they don’t already? How can our children, like John, re-connect with their love of learning? It’s there, we all have it.

The more I ask myself these questions, the more the world around me expands, and the more possibilities I see. And the more possibilities I see, the more I can share with my teachers, and the more they can offer their students.

Fascinating.

Here’s John’s talk, if you’re interested:

Would love to hear what you think, as a parent, a teacher, or a learner :)
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